Fearless Honesty, Trauma and Triggers

As part of my recovery, I am addicted to honesty, I cannot seem to live without it. It does not matter what I am feeling, I put fearless honesty into the world and watch to see what comes back because I deeply desire peace. I have learned there is a formula to success, it is walking away from anything that is causing us harm. I have been having a bad day today, an emotional relapse of sorts. One of my biggest triggers is having people offer me unsolicited advice, another is being told that I am wrong. Both of those things disturb my peace deeply because now I am forced to process the opinions of other people where before I had complete certainty. Especially when I am writing a post in a state of Acceptance, I am absolutely certain that what I am saying is true. What is worse is I instantly know that from the way people phrase themselves, I am being measured and judged. Many people process anger better than I do. Confession is what helps me keep myself in check. When someone else decides to put me in check after I share a confession, it is very upsetting. I am already doing the self-awareness work and I was not asking for advice. It doesn't matter if they have a good point, what matters is now there is an issue whereas before there was peace. I was told to keep an open mind tonight, cross-talked after I shared a couple of the traumas I am currently triggered by. Wow, I guess I said too much today. I have a lot of trauma and I have been doing a lot better lately, I am sorry though I am still not comfortable with people disturbing my peace when I am doing service work. I am going to stop posting here while I sort this new set of issues. Acceptance has a language of it's own, so does judgment. When I catch people taking my inventory, the relationship needs to change or end. Not sure when I will be back to posting, I will look for another outlet for my thoughts for now. Had three people preach to me today and that shows I need a break. Rev. Jeff Rounds