Well it's time for me to start this journey once again. I have not had any sobriety from alcohol since 2015. As I sit here at 8am all seems pretty good right now. I may be feeling a little unnerved but I think that is to be expected. But I know its time for me to kick this once and for all. Will I succeed? Who knows! But what I do know is I really want to and I am going to do everything I can and use every tool I can to help me to break this chain. Alcohol has been my very best friend since I was 15! It has never left me and has always been by my side. But although it has always been there it has been there on "its" terms not mine! It has been my abusive relationship and one I finally want to end. I want to hopefully share my experiences of success and failure in what is going to be the hardest thing I have ever done. When I think about what might come of this I am intrigued and nervous. I know if I can keep this up and really give myself the chance I think I deserve I will see my whole life change in a positive way. Right now I am going to take this 1 day at a time. Even maybe just 1 minute at a time. I have hurt myself and too many people that I love and have loved to not make this the time once and for all. I hope and pray that I can make it! Who knows. Maybe me sharing how it goes will help just 1 person along the way. I hope that I have what it takes to kill this beast and step out of the cloud and see how great things can really be.
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lewis1984
Legal alien here. Englishman in New York (That is probably lost on most people). Hoping to succeed at this thing called recovery and hopefully help others along the way. Damaged soul but hopefully now I can start working on myself and see where it takes me.