my daily reflections…

one of the most subtle ways my alcoholism can get to me is if i let someone elses wrong doin get to me whether fancied or real. i seemingly had no control over their actions, but yet i still feel somethin from it. it may be small at 1st, but as time passes, i nurture it and toss a lil kindlin on it. finally, someone elses actions, seemingly not my fault at all, roar into an incredible towerin inferno and i am then left dealin with anger, contempt, and vengeance. when i start to feel these lil fires burnin inside, so subtly, i need to take heed to em. they will not just sit there, smolder and go out, its not my nature to let that happen. what i need to do are the things this 12-step program has taught me to do, the alternative is not worth it to me any longer. by usin the steps i can put these small fires out. now they dont always go out, they at times continue til they rage. when this happens to me i need to dive further into the steps and take MORE ACTION against em in a positive manner. this has worked fer me in the past years and i am goin to let it continue to work fer me. 1 day @ a time...