my daily reflections…

i can remember people lookin at me and tellin me, "ya just dont get it, do ya joel?" they were right i didnt, i couldnt, if i could have i wouldnt have drank like i did. my mind was so filled with selfishness, confusion, and delusion, all that mattered to me was what i wanted, alcoholism was my master. i was wrapped tight in the spiritual malady this mornins readin speaks of. when i work with other alcoholics today i need to remember how i once was, how i can still be just like em in my thinkin and actions. honesty, understandin, compassion, integrity, and love, are what i need to portray when speakin with a newcomer, allowin em to feel my HP work through me toward em if it is possible. fer me to get upset at em is wrong in my opinion. now, it dont mean i dont get frustrated or upset at the disease of alcoholism or drug addiction, because i do. fer me to take any frustration out on the active alcoholic, or newcomer, does em or me, no good. askin my HP to work through me with love and tolerance, i can speak with the clear understandin of the spiritual malady they are battlin. i get to share how i battled the same malady. i get to show how i used the grace of my HP and the 12 spiritual principles of this thing we do to change my lifestyle. 1 day @ a time...