my daily reflections…

i always tried to solve all of the problems i had by myself, in some instances i was successful. i thought if i couldnt fix it, no one could. i totally relied on me to solve everythin and when it didnt work i would immediately push it to someone else, blamin em fer any of my misfortune. as ya may well know this process does not work, it may fer a short period, but after years of doin it with little success and lots of failure, my skin wore thin. i needed somethin to help with this, so i chose alcohol and sometimes drugs. ya'll know how those decisions went. it wasnt until i came into the rooms i was able to experience how people could use spirituality to solve the simplest, and even the most difficult, problems they encountered. problems i surely thought would make any man crumble, as i had always done in the past. i learned how to build upon the relationship i had begun to construct with my HP and others, strengthen my relationship with Him and em, and start livin as i had seen others do. i needed to build trust in others so i could relay my struggles to em. it was my only recourse left fer survival. today i do this, sometimes without thought, it just seems an intuitive behavior to handle situations which used to baffle me. by relyin upon the spiritual principles of this thing we do, i have learned how to solve all my problems and grow my spirituality as i look to my HP and others to help me. 1 day @ a time...