my daily reflections…

the idea of protection and care from an entity i cannot physically see, feel, or hear, had always seemed to elude me throughout the days of doin my dirt. unless i needed a santa god, there was no belief in anythin other than self. what seemingly did take away my problems, was my need to explore shit outside of me to fix my insides. what would be the turnin point where i might start workin on what was goin on within? through desperation to stop the madness within, total surrender was needed to stop the incessant need fer outside fixin. everythin i had tried, had been met with a half measure. and even still today, with much time practicin spiritual principles, half measure can be a catalyst to block any continued fulfillment. nothin back in the day provided me with the protection and care i truly needed. today, through the spiritual awareness this thing we do has taught me to live, i can let go of self-delusion and follow a spiritual entity i cannot see, but can feel, and hear, within. ive grown emotionally, behaviorally, psychologically, and spiritually, feelin within the protection and care of my HP. i get to give myself away to people relyin on God relayin a message of honesty and hope. 1 day @ a time...