my daily reflections…

after doin the 4th, 5th, 8th, and 9th steps i had no doubt i was alcoholic. if i had done each of those steps to the best of my ability, usin honesty, willingness, and humility as guides while exercisin em, how could i surmise anythin less? i kept the thought within that maybe someday i might be able to drink again. and even after practicin the spiritual principles, there seemed to be a lurkin notion i might become immune to my alcoholism. but with the facts squarely right in front of me, how could i continue with that insane notion. it took a while bein sober, and workin the steps of recovery, to get to the point where i could fully concede to my innermost self that i was an alcoholic. however, after takin the honest look at the days of doin my dirt, processin it with my sponsor, and experiencin what this thing we do had been givin me, i had to admit defeat. the decision had to be made, was i gonna do this shit called recovery, or not? today, many years into my recovery, im still doin this shit. i reckon the idea that i could drink like other people, or presently may be, has been smashed. today i understand im only like 1 group of other people. they are recoverin alcoholics, just like me. united we stand. 1 day @ a time...