my daily reflections…

rigorous honesty means to be severely exact or accurate; precise: it means truthfulness, sincerity, or frankness. these were words i always thought i was, but only used em to meet my agenda. they were words that caused me fear ifinz i was to actually live em as defined here. when i came into the rooms this last time, i understood how i needed to try to live the actual meanin i described. it was crucially important i confess my faults to another and make restitution for the harms i had done to others and myself. not only did i need to form and build a relationship with an HP, i had to do it with another person. WTF MANNN?!? i needed to learn how to pray rightly and calm myself fer meditation. i needed to learn how to tolerate bein alone with peace. then i had to go out and share my story with others who may want what i had. C’MON MANNN!!! havin lived a life in extreme self-centeredness, it was apparent, or why was i in a damned halfway house. i had to not only do, but try to think in earnest, rigorous honesty. this meant doin er’thang ive mentioned in this personal daily reflection. today, these ideas arent filled with fear, they are filled with gratitude, acceptance, willingness, humility, and love. i do em even when i dont want to; they are becomin, intuitive 1st nature. 1 day @ a time...