my daily reflections…

recovery showed me how resentment had been an instrument to most of, if not all, the problems my alcoholism had caused me. and i would be remiss if i didnt recognize, or mention, how resentment was a direct lead into self-pity. with the warm embrace of maudlin guilt self-pity embraced, self-centeredness and self-delusion rolled into fully showin me its ass. then arrogance, rationalization, and justification would drive any resentment into a deeper state of anger, frustration, and self-loathin. the only effective way i knew to overcome these sentiments, which had me actin out towards people who didnt deserve my confusion, bitterness, and disappointment, was to drink it into oblivion. learnin a new and different way to manage resentment, recovery, those who came into this thing we do before me, and a willingness fer active transformation, my HP helped show me how to use the spiritual principles of this thing we do to live a new life of freedom. 1 day @ a time...