my daily reflections…

my HP has provided me with all the emotions i need to love life to its fullest. its my understandin that as i grow physically and emotionally these emotions do the same. they will evolve as i experience lifes mountains and valleys. while in the days of doin my dirt the emotions on the mountain were emotions i liked and craved; i wanted to feel em more and more. when my natural abilities to feel em wasnt enough i searched out other methods to experience natural highs. as this mornins readin suggests, i willfully demanded more than i was due. my alcoholism peaked and i departed from the degree of perfection my HP had intended fer me. and that is where my character and shortcomins grew beyond my natural control. with unhealthy demands comes unhealthy growth. today i understand these concepts and have learned through recovery how to better manage my natural emotions. with this understandin i get to live toward a long-term hope that i will grow and evolve away from the natural desires to want more than im deserved. 1 day @ a time...