my daily reflections…

there was a time when i was one of those, “far too smart for my own good” types of people, and sometimes i can still be when my spiritual malady gets in the way. i tried everythin and every way to outthink or overthink anythin i ever did back in the days of doin my dirt. today, i wish i would have listened to what those who had experience and wisdom said instead of just hearin em. and it grew even worse as my alcoholism progressed. today i am 53 years old and 15 ½ years sober and in recovery. no matter how i tried to do things that i thought were the best course of action for me, it always seemed the outcomes smarted more than the worth i thought they could bring. i reckon thats what makes my recovery successful today, ive listened to those who came before me, even though in my early recovery they baffled me. today i have a sense of humility that doesnt require the scars i once received. though there are times i wish i hadnt passed from a condition in which i could tolerate alcohol to a condition in which i couldnt at all, i feel blessed that i have today and have lived the last few years sober and in recovery. im blessed to understand that the journey ive lived and get to continue to, is one in recovery today. today i am able to have and consider opinions. i am able to think and make decisions. im able to contribute to life and the world in which i live. i am involved. more than this, i have the spiritual confidence to fight for what i believe and speak out my concerns in love. i aint gotta live life frightened or overwhelmed, i have, and use, hope and faith. i can live with healthy boundaries between myself and other people. ive acknowledged i cannot live life alone, and i am workin to balance it with my desire for vulnerability and healthy risk. ive admitted powerlessness and have found power to overcome self and my stinkin thinkin. today i get to consider the basic spiritual principles of this thing we do and use my thoughts to provide wellness for others and myself. i understand that i cannot think my way to a better life, i have to behave my way toward it usin a manuscript for rationally livin solutions through each powerful step. 1 day @ a time...