my daily reflections…

though it was a great relief to finally surrender, accept, and understand where i had gone wrong, acknowledgin the harm i had caused, sometimes without even realizin it, it was not until i faced those i had hurt that i felt the deeper stin begin to fade. the list i had prepared was only the startin point, a framework for bringin my internal flaws into the light. i had to examine the forgiveness i had begun to extend to myself and shape it into somethin i could humbly request from others. questions swirled in my mind: would they believe my sincerity? would they accept my willingness to make amends? or would my presence stir up old pain, riskin further harm? my sponsor helped me to see that these questions, however honest, were rooted in fear; fear i had to overcome if i was to move forward. despite the uncertainty, i pressed on, guided by the spiritual principles of recovery. they helped dull the emotional sting of the “ground glass” i was unearthin. with faith in my HP, i did what i could: wrote down my amends, owned my wrongs, sought repair, while takin another step toward a holistic inner healin, and presentin them to my sponsor. 1 day @ a time…