my daily reflections…

when i first came into the rooms, my sponsor asked me if i had a “God problem”. what he meant by that question was if i had a problem with God bein a part of my life and suggested that if i did i could use the group of recovery as an HP until i had learned enough to make a decision and choice as to what i wanted to use as my Higher Power. truth be told i was angry at God. i blamed Him for a couple key events in my life that i thought He let happen. i found out through my inventories that i had formed a resentment against God which blocked me spiritually. i later learned thats why my “fox hole” prayers never worked, HA! i still had some acceptance to gain. as my time in recovery pressed forward and i trudged along in the steps, acceptance came and i began to form a relationship with my HP. as i recall, and look back, i cant say exactly when the time came, but there was a period where acceptance really started showin me a lot of shit. mostly as i began to take responsibility for the dirt i had done. today i have no qualms about recognizin my HP and talkin freely about His awesome grace in my life. 1 day @ a time...