fear touches every aspect of my life, and one where it hits heavy is when i feel like i havent the necessary cash reserve/inflow to live comfortably. im not talkin bout havin the nicest car or house in town, im talkin bout the basic shit, a place to live, a way to get around, pay bills, buy food or clothes, that kinda shit. these are the types of things that help me live with a sense of security. i aint tryna say i dont want a 2022 jeep 4X4 or want a 2-story house on 100 acres with a nice fishin hole or huntin land, cause i would like that, the point im tryna make is those things are wants, not needs. and im not tryina convey that material success brings spiritual success. in fact, i feel the opposite, i believe that spiritual success brings material success. when im tryna live as my HP wants me to live, i get to find peace of mind with the basic necessities i have bein met. when i live a spiritual life, as recovery has taught me, im able to use the gifts spiritual awareness brings. freedom from fear is one of those gifts a spiritual way of life brings. if i do the next right thing, i receive the right asset or resource. if i get off my dead ass and get a job, if possible, i get paid. this means i practice a level of humility that provides me a paycheck. when i get a paycheck, i get to pay for my basic necessities. when they are met, i aint gotta fear the next moment, i can live in this moment free from fear. i then get to thank God that He has given me the ability to work and have another day to enjoy because im sober and can provide for myself. i believe there is a hierarchy of needs that starts with an ability to connect to my HP in a manner that gives me the strength and courage to cover my psychological and safety requirements for life. i can then work toward fulfillin intimate relationships with family friends, and self, bolster my emotional needs with a feelin of accomplishment, and then obtain self-actualization needs like achievin my full potential. these are promises i get to live because of recovery. i get to live the gift of spirituality without it bein misplaced. i get to choose to believe that a power greater than myself can help me deal with life, givin me a reason to be optimistic. with a clear recognition of what and who i really am, followed by a sincere attempt to become what i could be, i get to correct fears so that i may clearly see them for what they are. learnin to overcome fear is the very essence of humility; the two-walk hand in hand. 1 day @ a time...
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bjsrer
corn fed not inbred michigan white trash...