my daily reflections…

one of the most insidious manifestations of my alcoholism arises when i allow anothers wrongdoin, whether real or imagined, to disturb my spiritual equilibrium. though i possess no power over the actions of others, i often find myself reactin as though i do. a word, a glance, or a perceived slight can ignite a spark of resentment within me that, if left unchecked, grows into a consumin blaze of anger, contempt, or vengeance. my mind, ever eager to justify its own unrest, begins to feed the fire with imagined offenses and self-righteous narratives. in these moments, when i actively practice the work of Perseverance it demands that i pause, take honest inventory, and recognize that the disturbance lies not in them, but in me. i must resist the seductive pull of assignin blame and instead turn my attention to the spiritual tools that have sustained my recovery. fixin me, not you, is where the real work of Step Ten lives. this spiritual discipline teaches me to act, not react; to correct my own defects rather than attempt to manage the behaviors of others. when i apply the steps with sincerity, through prayer, reflection, confession, and amends, i reclaim my serenity from the fires of resentment. Perseverance here is not about suppressin emotion but transformin it through spiritual practice into humility and compassion. some fires may smolder longer than others, but the continued effort to face them honestly keeps me teachable and free. my commitment, is to stay willin to take more action when necessary, to deepen my self-examination, and to remember that peace is found not in changin you, but in continually allowin my HP to change me. 1 day @ a time...