my daily reflections…

recovery has done for me what its posed to do, help me get sober. its been my personal experience that when i stopped puttin alcohol in my body, the illusion i had let it create, that all was fine and dandy, stopped happenin. now that dont mean the delusion that i was ok stopped, cause it didnt. what recovery did for me was help me find the character faults and shortcomins i practiced. after findin these things out, it offered a solution to those personal problems. before i came into recovery i thought the depression, anxiety, and mental state i suffered from required a doctors prescription. i found out in recovery, that if i had been honest with the doctor about my drinkin and drug use, he prob would have prescribed abstinence from both, instead of drugs i didnt need. it dont mean that after quittin drinkin and druggin i didnt still suffer from depression, anxiety, or personal problems, cause i did. what i found the solution to my mental state to be was honesty, willingness, and open-mindedness. i aint ever been a truly stupid or dumb person, but when soaked in alcohol or drugs, both surely were my charge. openin up the big book and actually doin what it suggested helped me overcome my depression, anxiety, and sack of sadness i carried in my mind. gettin honest with another, myself, and my HP, helped me grow in the areas needed. i learned a new direction to grow from by communion with my HP. as i healed within i naturally began to cooperate with my HP. i learned how to heal by forgivin myself for yesterday, so i could look forward to the healin that comes today. i dont have to worry too much. i aint gotta carry so many resentments. and ive stopped hurtin myself physically and mentally by too much of everythin, by learnin proper balance. ive learned how to be, so i can do. by preparin myself to be honest, pure, unselfish, and lovin, ive healed personal relationships, mainly the relationship i have with myself. as i practice easy does it, i get to constantly prepare myself for better things to come. i get to prepare myself for better opportunities when i am ready for them. all i have to do is accept, begin, and continue to work toward progress. 1 day @ a time...