my daily reflections…

when i began to use the priority list my sponsor suggested i didnt know if it would work. i didnt know if i could live by such, misunderstood, religious standards. even as my sponsor had explained to me that the program wasnt a religious one, but a spiritual one, i still had misconceptions about it. i had to ask questions in meetins, talk to others, and gain an understandin of just what the guidelines were for turnin my life and will over to God. in my youth id been baptized in church, i had been to sunday school, and every other event ya could think of that was an event a church would have, so my thoughts on a new priority list and the whole concept i had over God had to be explored. as i learned what i needed through thoughtful investigation i developed the idea that this thing we do wasnt a religious one, but still used, as suggested by the authors, principles of religion that were spiritual in nature. i had to practice usin the ideas that i perceived were spiritual. i had known them from long ago and had applied religion to them. separatin them from synthetic religion, and interpretin them to mean somethin other than religious terms, i moved forward growin the newfound relationship with my HP. exchangin my old unhealthy priority list for the balanced and healthy one my sponsor had suggested, was tryin at times, but as i lived the change recovery offers, i slowly began to have an understandin of what they meant to me. today, i feel like i have fully turned my life over to the protection and care of my HP. i feel like i continue to successfully use the priority list my sponsor suggested. i reckon if i hadnt, i wouldnt be sober today. usin humility to grow faith helps me in my recovery every day. when i entered into this program of spiritual and emotional renewal, i made a conscious decision to become honest with myself. in the process, my eyes began to see more clearly, and i became aware of the many ways i have been dishonest with myself. each new bit of self-honesty helped me build the base for more insight and an ever sharper understandin of myself and faith. when i started with the decision to be honest, i couldnt have predicted what i would find down the path. i first surrendered to the truth as i understood it, and the clarity i found about myself and faith grew into great insight. the world opened up for me, and i found even more to see and learn. through practicin the three pertinent ideas as best as i can, over and over again, over the years, i know and understand my rightful place with my HP. 1 day @ a time...