my daily reflections…

sittin in the rooms today i get to witness the work others have put into their personal programs of recovery. i get to be witness to the extraordinary miracles that this thing we do brings to those whove surrendered to the fatal obsessions theyve carried. this brings me hope that if i continue to do as they, i may get to continue to experience the miracles in my own personal program of recovery. as this mornin readin suggests, its simple mannn. its a choice to choose joy or continue to live in chaos of self. when i turned my will and life over to the care of my HP, i didnt know if the God idea would work. but as the minutes have turned in to days, days into months, and months into years, i get to look back and see how this simple choice of self-will has had a profound impact on my life. lookin at my past through continued 4th, 8th, and 10th steps, i get to gain knowledge of who and what i am, leadin to the wisdom to continue to live the change. my ideas didnt work then, and even though ive made drastic changes in behavior and thinkin, sometimes they dont work today. i still have to rely upon the relationships i have with my HP and trusted friends in recovery, to continue to transform and evolve within. if i want to live the quality of faith ive seen in others i must emulate what they do so i can add value to my life as i perceive they have. my goal is to be free from alcohol just for this moment, for this day. however, since my faith may fall short or is apt to be weak, i have to strengthen and build it up daily. i do this in several ways. one way is to surrender my will and git my ass to a meetin and listen to others tell how they have found all the strength they need, usin faith, to overcome their alcoholism. its been my experience that, the most valuable life is one of honesty, purity, unselfishness, and love, as ive witnessed it in others in the rooms. it means a willingness to endeavor to persevere in spite of myself. sometimes whatever happens to me in my day may not be my fault, but my response to it is my responsibility. within my wonderful new world, ive found freedom from my fatal obsession by continuin to use the God idea to expand and mature my faith in Him. 1 day @ a time...