my daily reflections…

i have said that though i may think about alcohol, as a result of the steps, i do not obsess over it. this doesnt mean that i am still not an alcoholic, cause i am. i get to say things like, “not obsessin over alcohol” because i work toward livin as spiritual a life as i can, doin what this thing we do says to overcome times i am weak emotionally, psychologically, behaviorally, or spiritually. truth to self, and one of the main points i need to emphasize with myself with deadly earnestness, on a daily basis, is that i am an alcoholic, and i will always be an alcoholic. i work toward not holdin any reservation that i may be able to drink again and not cause the chaos and devastation i once did for others and myself. crucial to overcomin my disease of alcoholism, is the earnestness with which i practice and live each of the 12 spiritual principles contained within the 12 steps and traditions. how i may need to use one more than another in any given moment throughout my day, responsibly understandin that each are just as important as the other. certainly, bein the 3rd month of the year, focusin on the 3rd step and traditions concept of faith, i get to understand my own individuality and how i need faith to humble myself so i may try to live as my HP guides. my life depends upon the fact that i may only live through each day understandin that every spiritual need will be supplied by God, not me; that i use the power i receive from Him to help others. this, as an end result, helps to complete the understandin that without Him, i am nothin, with Him, i get to become powerful and use manageability to live my life in ways that help me and those around me. when i remain open to my alcoholism, i get to open new frontiers and areas of growth for the evolution of my recovery and the world around me. im no genius, but with simplicity and surrender, i do remember where i came from. self-care means i set boundaries that may be difficult for self or others, however, in the end, i, and hopefully they, are better for those boundaries. its been my experience, when i act on faith, without reservation, i actually have it. 1 day @ a time...