my daily reflections…

keepin resentment only keeps me stuck in my alcoholism. it keeps me blocked from the good my HP has in store for me. it dont mean i cant feel emotions, be sad, or feel hurt, im posed to feel those emotions. they are what help me seek out new ways to live and grow healthy behavioral character which changes my cognitive and psychological health. recovery has taught me through personal inventory to use the hope of step 2, faith of step 3, and utilize the courage of step 4. with each i get to learn new skill sets that regulate my emotions, articulate how they are makin me feel so i may use them with healthy intuitive action, expressin how i may use them for behavioral character change. by usin action & behavior to change my cognitive health, i aint gotta let old neurotic or personality traits live in my present moment any longer. by bein more mindful toward livin in da moment with a positive outlook and healthy behavior, i have the opportunity to change everythin within and around me. to me, it is the essence of growth through the ability to allow emotions to help move forward emotionally, psychologically, behaviorally, and spiritually. the bondage of resentment keeps that positive and healthy cultivation of what the steps provide from happenin for me. recovery for me opens me up to the freedom of relationships with others, myself, and my HP so i may 12 step myself, with the help of those mentioned, into a better life and way of livin. im allowed to still feel self-pity, im allowed to still have my self-esteem touched, im allowed to feel every emotion any human can feel, includin resentment, usin a new solution to live the change past them. acknowledgin my emotions, askin for help from others, prayin to my HP then listenin for his intuitive wisdom, sharin that thought with another so i can be sure im on the right track, is what recovery asks me to do so i may progress. i aint tryina die today, im tryna live a balanced, and healthy life in all areas so the bondage of resentment doesnt stand a chance to live on within. i get to be grateful for tellin my story and knowin that i am more than the man i once was. i get to openly ask the questions and honestly listen for the answers, so i may actively develop and flourish into someone ive never been before. 1 day @ a time...