my daily reflections…

today i get to live with an ability to face life with peace of mind a majority of the time. im blessed with an understandin that i cannot control the worlds troubles, carryin them on my shoulders. nor do i have to try to manipulate those around me to do as i wish. i get to live with an open horizon, broad, roomy, and free. the insistent yearnin to enjoy life without the heartbreakin obsession that some new miracle of control would enable me to live with alcohol, has gone. ive learned a discipline which has enabled me to let loose the incessant self-demand to run the show to my likin. as i may only have learned a little and my education into self grows each day, i get to use the basics of recovery to continue to accept the joyful discoverys my HP and recovery offer me. i get to be open to the possibilities of helpin others without demand of return. i get to do as my HPs will is, as gleaned from my mornin times of daily readins, prayer, and meditation. i get to, as a friend of mine says, help show others how to avert death and misery as i once faced. i get to transmit my current experience, strength, and hope in the light of a destitute, pathetic, and unhappy past. i get to show them how my HP and recovery has turned indifference, depression, misery, hatred, dishonesty, rashness, imperviousness, disloyalty, and mismanagement into love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. how these great facts are gifts i get to live today. i get to have a consciousness of Gods presence and a knowledge that God will give me spiritual vision when i humble myself. how the ability to accept responsibility is the measure of my individuality and personal recovery from my alcoholism. how takin the negative focus i used to own has turned into a capability to see beyond my self-centeredness due to a willingness to stop bein in the middle of the picture. i get to be genuinely interested in other people and in who they are. the joyful discoverys of spiritual awareness have given me small bits, over time, courage & strength to relay a message of forgiveness, hope, and unconditional love. 1 day @ a time...