i could not be where i am today if i hadnt lived each moment of each day as best as i could in any given moment of my recovery. not each day is a day lived as the best day i could ever imagine, nor is each day lived the worst day i could ever imagine, the point is that i have a solution which helps me live better than i used to live. im not perfect, nor will i ever be. and the fact is i do sink into self-centered fear, just as i get to experience its antithesis of feelin the elation of good hope and good will. i do sink into low self-esteem sometimes, just as in contrast, i get to live the high points life brings too. as long as i use what ive been taught to keep some kind of balance within my heart, mind, and body, i get to move toward the progress recovery offers. recovery doesnt tell me im not gonna experience life, recovery teaches me how to live life through many of lifes peaks and valleys. as long as i make progress, tryin to live life better than i did the day before, i get to move a little toward my HPs perfection. i aint gotta live in a vail of dread and tears as i once did before my recovery began. i get to feel the humanness my HP intended me to feel. its how i treat the world around me when life happens that tells the tale of my character, my integrity, my humility, and ultimately, the recovery i say i live. when i feel deeply secure, deeply rooted in faith, i get to live toward my HPs perfection. i get to live without certainty and yet without being paralyzed by hesitation or fear because of a commitment and confidence in recoverys practice. i can allow an intimacy to be shared with others whether im feelin good within or bad and not treat another the way i feel. its the gift recovery gives me to live. all i have to do is remain ready to let God remove from me all the things which i have admitted are objectionable. it is just one of the tasks ahead of me which is never as great as the power behind me in the faith in my HP. i just gotta keep honest, open-minded, and willing. 1 day @ a time...
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bjsrer
corn fed not inbred michigan white trash...