my daily reflections…

ive recently relocated to a new area of the country. to say it has been excitin wouldnt be story tellin by no means. ive had much success in the adventure and seems like, even more failure. ive tried to live by the mantra that the story of my recovery tells the tale of how i handle failure and success. my job search down here, 850 miles from where ive lived the last 17years and 950 miles from where i grew up, hasnt been very fruitful. ive accepted the terms of 2 different positions over the last 4 months and havent been successful at either. my financial resources are runnin low. in the past ive never had such difficulty findin employment, ive always been able to have a job. even as i researched the employment opportunities in this new area before i moved, and thought i would have no trouble findin employment, ive struggled. if it were not for recovery and its awesome guidelines and concepts for lifes difficulties, i would not have remained sober through this adventurous journey. today i have a changed outlook. even as i go through the character defects and shortcomins that beg me to rely upon self, lettin go and lettin joel, fallin prey to low self-esteem, self-pity, or self-victimization, i choose to live through my humanness and let Gods will lead me through the positive and healthy tools of recovery to make progress. so, as ive said, i get to show others the story of my recovery as i move through perceived failure and success. as im gradually transformed from an old lifestyle to a new lifestyle, tendin the spark of the Divine within me so that it will grow, i get to learn even more about myself. im no longer a person that needs to live alone, i get to use the recovery that surrounds me to move through failure and success. livin with a changed outlook, i get to live my recovery with teamwork. ive found God and other sober people. ive learned over the years the more i seek to live the spiritual life, the more i realize it is based upon a connection to others. the crucial task of livin the change of my recovery as i age through it, is balance. today i can enjoy the moderation of balance and change with the knowledge it will enhance my life. i aint gotta be a prisoner of my own resentments, i get to willingly use forgiveness to unlock the door and set myself free. 1 day @ a time...