my daily reflections…

it was a hell of an event when i asked an entity i mayve felt and sensed, but couldnt see, taste, touch, or hear, take everythin from me, good or bad, so i might live a life of freedom and peace of mind. at the time, it seemed more than an act of humility to say the least. someone who had always tried to rely on self, feelin like nobody ever was around to help or rely on, i had to let loose self-centeredness and arrogance and ask God to help me, guide me, and be there for me when i felt nobody else was. of course, i had to try it on physical beins first. people like my sponsor, and other trusted friends in recovery. as i gained trust in em, i found it easier to overturn my deficiencies and deformities to my HP. as i let loose my character defects and later, my shortcomins, i could feel serenity slowly flow into me. it was a learnin experience that took much time. i had to start with action and behavior change first so i could begin to psychologically feel like lettin go and lettin God, would work. as little pieces of faith and trust were tossed out, watchin for the return, i could see and feel the works of recovery and my HP provide me with returns i couldve never done myself. by merely askin my HP to decide, i get to feel the inward peace that comes from trust in my HP which truly passes all understandin. its a peace no one can take from me. it is only through the education recovery has provided me i get to feel, experience, and appreciate the spiritual experience which is the key to my prosperity today. i get to aspire to the wisdom that allows me to live abundantly. as i think of God as my partner, fear has less likely an opportunity to trouble me today. with no exception, nor any form of self-deception and experimentation, i aint gotta try to prove myself an exception. i need my HPs guidance today so i may live the grace He provides. i reckon the greatest hope i ever threw out was to not wake up again with the fears i had before my recovery began. today, i dont wake up with those fears. somethin changed. the miracle of recovery worked when i got humble and asked Him to decide. 1 day @ a time...