my daily reflections…

i didnt want to stay stuck in the mire when i 1st came into the rooms, and still dont want to remain there. for me to continue to grow i must be willin to. havin lived long enough to experience the many gifts recovery has promised would happen, why wouldnt i want to continue? ive watched others receive the gifts and move on without ever seein or experiencin the results of further work. some of them went on to live happily, and some of them didnt. well, if what ive already gotten from livin a life of freedom and peace of mind has helped me, why would i want to stop. ive learned what my control issues provide me. ive studied what my ego and pride have served. ive witnessed what selfishness and self-centeredness has done for me. each of these are problems that have caused only more harm to those i love the most and myself. the big book emphasizes willingness as bein indispensable. if i show a willingness to remedy my own defects of character, i get to turn my dark past to good account for future good emotional, psychological, behavioral, and spiritual health, not only for others, but myself as well. havin experienced a source of power much greater than myself, usin faith in my HP, with such backin and evidence, perseverin forward, only seems natural. as ive yielded to honesty and open-mindedness, gifts have been received. my spiritual awakenin has to go on. what ive accomplished has only been a matter of self-surrender, willingness, patience, and labor. Gods love will never fail me. why not try to give it to others? my legacy should be that i made it better than it was when i got it. each day i seek to improve my life and in doin so, i improve the world. when i came into this thing we do, i was asked if i was willin to go to any lengths to win freedom from bondage. as ive grown and developed a positive response, all sorts of things have become possible that at one time were not. i am amazed and encouraged by the gains ive already made. further growth in todays challenges do not intimidate me. ive learned accountable actions, provide the highest form of self-respect so i may admit mistakes and make amends for them. its the justice of step 9 where i get to use the confidence in my HPs unfailin power. if more gifts are to be received, my awakenin has to go on. 1 day @ a time...