the reconstruction of my life will not end til the day i pass. the more i learn about myself, the deeper understandin i have of the grace my HP has blessed me with. and as far as amends go, even as i may have given those i harmed the opportunity to allow me to know how ive harmed them and lived the amends to completion as theyve desired, i still must continue to live in such a manner that i dont continue to practice the poor character i did to harm em. i have to continue to live with a style and technique that allows me to persevere and prosper usin recoverys spiritual process. i feel better emotionally, psychologically, behaviorally, and spiritually than i did when i first came into the rooms, today. but that doesnt mean that i stop tryina practice the knowledge ive been given through experience and wisdom. i may have to stop and rest, i may even recess, but what makes me succeed is the willingness and action to move forward when that time of calm or recession has passed. i dont think i will ever live to perfection, but it doesnt mean i cant use the time of reconstruction to try to. when i commit the behavior and thinkin that make for peace, it doesnt mean i can stop. reconstruction means that i keep with livin a mission of conciliation, so i dont have to keep makin amends for doin the same dumb ass shit i used to. im gonna make mistakes, im gonna fail in my attempts to live as rightful as i can, but im also gonna make gains, succeed, and lessen makin the same mistakes over and over as i learn from em. what i believe, reflects the God i believe in. believin in my HP beats my old knowledge. today, i get to live the healthy and balanced miracle of believin in me also. ive learned it is well to give when asked, but it is better to give unasked, through understandin. the program has taught me that the price for serenity and sanity is self-sacrifice. whats my choice to be? ima keep reconstructin my life. 1 day @ a time...
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corn fed not inbred michigan white trash...