my daily reflections…

today it feels good to fit and belong in Gods scheme of things. an ambition for the desire to live usefully and walk humbly under the grace of my HP far exceeds dignity or importance of influencin factors that make me want to be somethin more than, or better than, others; i can live comfortable bein just me. i do not need to have a heap of material possessions to be substitutes for happiness, peace of mind, or serenity within, i can be happy just bein me and fittin in comfortably amongst others. this doesnt mean i still dont want to have nice things or live without consequence, it just means that today i get to feel the freedom recovery offers without the tug and pull of tryin to outthink situations or be someone i am not. when i have the honest desire to live the way recovery teaches me there can be no possible evasion of the duties that livin this responsible way of life requires. havin gained the confidence a spiritual awakenin provides, carryin the message in everythin i try to do within my day, makes livin and practicin the principles contained within the 12 steps easier. it dont mean i dont struggle, or even suffer sometimes, cause i do, just means the dumb shit i used to get tripped up over no longer trips me up as much as it used to. as the strength, new life, and spiritual power come as a result of the union of my soul with God, the spiritual foods of livin His will, help me gain the support for true livin, and give me the humble courage, peace, and strength i need. when helpin another i get to show them the effect of livin a healthy spiritual way of life. by simply tellin the truth, of my story to the person who can do the best with it, i get to receive it in return. it has been my experience that like hearts bind tighter when i remain grateful for the healin presence of my trusted friends in recovery. ive been given today, why not use it? if i dont live today, i may miss out on todays wonder. so with service, gladly rendered, obligations squarely met, troubles well accepted or solved with Gods help, the knowledge that at home or in the world outside i am a partner with others in a common effort, the well-understood fact that in Gods sight all human beins are important, the proof that love freely given surely brings a full return, the certainty that i am no longer isolated and alone in a self-constructed prison, the surety that i need no longer be a square peg in a round hole, i get to carry the message of recovery to those whom may be sufferin. that is what true ambition means to me today. 1 day @ a time...