my daily reflections…

my personal program of recovery involves deflatin my ego. to make it work for me i need to share my problems to find my solutions. i cannot live the way i used to anymore. after havin been in recovery for the time i have been, keepin shit within only serves to tear my ass up. it just doesnt feel right as it may have back in the days of doin my dirt. i reckon ive lived this thing we do long enough to have instilled its spiritual principles into a way of life. i can sense within, even more than ever before, when i aint feelin quite right, and i must take care of what ev it is as soon as i can. my first go to is to pray and ask my HP to help guide me toward a solution to what ev im feelin. the answers i usually tend to receive are responses that require some action that gets me out of self and puttin forth service toward my HP and another person. see, only by discussin whats goin on within, holdin back nothin, only by bein willin to accept the answers to my prayers, seekin advice and acceptin direction, can i set foot on the road to straight thinkin, solid honesty, and genuine humility. its all the process of lettin go and lettin God, instead of lettin go and lettin joel. as i learn truths about myself from this simple, yet not easy, process, i get to live the transformational change within that allows the convalescence to happen. today, i cant go back to old patterns of behavior and thinkin. ive changed as a result of livin and practicin what recovery offers me. the program of recovery i work toward livin today requires me to always be desirous of cooperatin with my HP and others in every way. my HP is always ready to pour His blessins into my heart in generous measure. its my responsibility to prepare myself before the seed is dropped in. prayer and meditation help me to prepare myself for gifts i may receive, whether i want to or not. i have to live & let God, it just doesnt feel right within if i try to neglect that inner urgin. all i gotta do is be careful not to harbor those things in my heart that will cause me or another harm. prayer and meditation help in my efforts to live as rightly as i can today. 1 day @ a time...