my daily reflections…

what ive found about the relationship with my HP is that ive been able to tolerate life much better. meditation has taught me how to be patient. meditation has given me a way to grow my emotional health. meditation has given me the ability to gain emotional balance. in times of rough goin, meditation helps me to remember the gifts ive received which livin a turmoiled state would never have allowed. when im tryin to beat myself up, meditation reminds me through a list of gratitude what i been gifted by merely livin a sane lifestyle. just as my sponsor suggested i choose an HP of my own conception; he also showed me how meditation was just as much a choice. i had learned a lil bout it in step 3, but here is where i was to really focus on meditation as a way to strengthen my relationship with my HP. as i look back onto, and into, my early recovery i can see the growth ive made. i sense it within; all the change, all the growth, how relationships with others have bettered, and how i view the world around me. my days arent filled with regret and fear of some impendin doom from outta nowhere. i get to start each day with a light heart and a new confidence, without the load of the past or the future. i get to focus on right now with a measure of peace of mind. livin the change has brought me to a place where i accept and forgive myself, even a little, so i may be to some degree lovable. meditation strengthens my ability to forgive myself and others. when i do this i am able to be vulnerable and live life free to take risks again without fear of unforgivable failure. as ive healed, enjoyin the strength to share my recovery, recoverin together with others, recovery, this thing we do, is the only place in the world where i can walk into a room full of total strangers and reminisce. these are the gifts, the blessins, of meditation. 1 day @ a time...