my daily reflections…

i really dont know when i crossed the line that made me an alcoholic, but i do remember the loneliness of my alcoholism, when the dreadful and hideous four horsemen wanted to befriend me. i can never forget that, it hurt. i am grateful today that with Gods help i no longer have to live that way. i have been given a kit of spiritual tools to use, when times get tough. i learned when comin into this thing we do of the recovery paradoxes. the 1st one on this list was, “we surrender to win”. this suggestion seemed to go against every moral fiber of my bein and everythin i had ever thought or strived fer. now, today, after bein involved in recovery fer a while, i understand the truth to this paradox. it took a lot to break old spirit, habit, & lifelong understandin. liberation and strength have become a part of my life today like it never was before this fellowship. finally, after findin the victory in surrender, i have a solid foundation to continue to build a better life ahead. 1 day @ a time…