my daily reflections…

it was impressed upon me in my early recovery that i try to build a relationship with others in the fellowship and a HP. then, if i was to be honest with myself, i would need these relationships to help me grow past all the character defects and shortcomins that had held me captive. i had to learn how to let go of unhealthy aspects of my life i had always nurtured, and tried to control, hopin i could manufacture within, some kind of solution. livin the change recovery offers didnt happen overnight, just as this mornins readin suggests. i was plagued by emotions of shame, guilt, and remorse in my early recovery, and i didnt know how to overcome them. in the past, before my recovery began and even as i was learnin how to use the connection i had with my HP in my early recovery, i relied on self. today, ive learned how to live with these emotions usin the spiritual program of recovery. ive learned how to use honesty to manage my feelins, set healthy boundaries for myself and others, live in the present, and get out of self-absorption. i use the spiritual awareness ive gained from the reprieve i receive through the daily maintenance of my spiritual condition. as i grew, i began to rely upon the honesty i was learnin to form a humility that allowed me to experience how others in recovery and my HP could guide me to a better way of life. the daily time of prayer and meditation ive used throughout my recovery has enlightened me to how these early mornin times set my day ahead for the forgiveness, hope, and love recovery has taught me to unselfishly receive and give. gentleness and self-forgiveness have restored my emotional balance. ive learned that sobriety, just as my recovery, without action, is fantasy. i get a new day each mornin to learn and practice movin away from self. 1 day @ a time...