my daily reflections…

i always knew there were things in life i wasnt doin. i didnt do em because i didnt want the responsibility they entailed. i always tried to pawn it off on someone else or just not do it. i thought this gave me freedom. i remember when i was young i seen a sign at a dentists office. it said, “if you ignore your teeth they will go away.” i used that same philosophy with responsibility in my life as well. today bein clean and sober i can no longer ignore the responsibilitys of livin life. i am not a young un anymore. recovery has taught me manageable ways to live with shit i may have difficulty with, like growin up. i can remember bein a young un and thinkin to myself, why should i try to be responsible, i will have plenty of time fer that later on. well, later on came faster than i ever thought it would; later on, is today. hell man, sometimes i still dont wanna grow up. this thing we do has taught me the things i shoulda been doin years ago; ive found out it hasnt gotten any easier to grow up at 55. what i have gained from the process of recovery is a sense of responsibility so i may grow up emotionally, psychologically, behaviorally, and spiritually. it has taught me how to take care of the things i need to, as soon as i can, as best as i can. ive learned this willingness clears up the wreckage of my past and creates a better future for myself and others around me. i no longer procrastinate or put off the harder things i need to grow, i can face em with willin certainty; i can get through em knowin His will is done. willingness has become 1st nature today and provided the true freedom i used to think i had. responsibility is somethin i must carry with me in all areas of my life. with the grace, forgiveness, guidance, and unconditional love of my HP, ive become willin to change so i may shoulder whatever responsibility this entails, daily. 1 day @ a time…