my daily reflections…

i remember when i came into the rooms and was able to start really listenin to what the people and speakers were sayin. i began to hear many of em speak of the way i had felt while i was out doin my dirt nstuff. it began to occur to me, i was really not as alone as i once thought i was. now, i didnt open up all at once, ask my sponsor, he will tell ya, but it did start givin me the courage to open up. this was God workin in my life, doin fer me what i was always afraid of doin myself, lettin someone else in. today i am not afraid to share and talk of how my life was, i am honestly able to accept me fer who i am and know that there are people out there just like me. the solutions i have found from many of the problems i had in the past i found in this thing we do. the solutions that had evaded me fer so long may have been easily seen many times, but i overlooked em or tossed em aside. what i found out in recovery, was many of the people that stand beside me carry some of the same character defects and shortcomins as i did and still do. together we are able to solve our common problems collectively which in turn helps us individually. we are brothers and sisters in our defects. our HPs, this thing we do, and ourselves, help each other to overcome our difficulties. i am blessed to have such a group around me i can support and is willin to support me. it is my responsibility to use courage so i may remain a part of our fellowship. 1 day @ a time…