That one time my mind was away at band camp.

It's funny sometimes how our minds just can grind away at things. Round and round, like a rock tumbler polishing quartz. I'm an introvert and as an introvert, I tend to digest conversations for months in the back of my mind. I don't know if this is healthy or not. I have not taken time to examine it or talk to anyone about it. I find writing to help externalize the internal struggles. I generally journal and think it's a great way to spend time getting to the bottom of what ever is puzzling me. I enjoy reading blogs and discovering other ways to look at the world I have perceived wrongly for so long. New ways to "love" my neighbor and help others that may be struggling with the same problems I have had in life. This disease, allergy, mental problem or what ever this is... It's a forever deal now. Alcohol has take a lot from me. My friends I drank with, my friends that were sober, some family, lots of money and right now my wife....Look at that, I'm saying alcohol did it...When it was ME using it to escape reality that caused all of these problems. Al-tho, there is a GREAT HOPE. Through God rebuilding my life and the fellowship of A.A. I believe 100% that He will restore me and use me to accomplish good using all the bad that I have done. As I travel through the steps and continue to meet people and make amends, I will stumble upon another soul that is desperately seeking release from the prison of oblivion and death as this is where this horrible lying poison leads. God Bless B