the legion is hard but the bread is for sure (recovery in mental health, trauma, schizophrenia)

le diable rit avec nous, les fous. for my people, the mentally ill, the camps have never ended. we have to seek refuge in being legion, therefore we are many, we are not anonymous, we are sedated by force with medication that kills us early on in life and leads for many into an existence of poverty, homelesness or lifelong treatment incarceration and such. most of the time, the medication they force on us are blockers of the dopamine neurotransmitter system, a transmitter at the synaptic gap throughout the body's nerve system. it is said to be the neurotransmitter of creativity, reward and fine coordination. the opposite of Anti Parkinsons Medication. a common side effect is developing of a Parkinsonoid, tremors shivers cramps, Dyskenisia, no joy at all, no Dopamine kicks, except for eventually from tobacco, marijuana or other street drugs, many of us use for self medication or a short relief of being numbed and going through life as a zombie. the dopamine thesis has never been proved. but they say it works, because the most of us remain silent and dont leash out against 'them' once set at a certain dosage of those drugs. there is hope in new studies about medication which derives from the slight stimulant of bethel nut to get some relief from our suffering. we are the most sensitive human beings on this planet. we are best in fine arts. we are not evil, we are not criminals, our madness is not that much different from the madness everybody with a still living soul and heart should be able to feel at this state in history of global near post capitalism. dont believe what the media tells about people like us like 'thejoker' 'harleyquinn' and such. most of us are scared to death about what we 'see' or 'hear'. we are paranoid. we are hunted. we are easy victims to the most. if we act violently, in the most cases it is uncoordinated and without much of harm to society. we act violently mostly in self defense. when medics law enforcement or other people narrow down our yet narrow space in this world. we panic easily. our triggers can be nearly everything. it was not our choice to become delusional and sick. many of us are not strong enough to take back their delusional impressions of reality or overcome them prove them wrong or right. the only cure i see there is like in the treatment of ptsd. regaining back your senses by being set out to the trauma again and again until you get used to it and dont have to worry about it anymore. another day another trigger. proving your everyday awareness. getting out, shop food, cook build trust with people again. we can run but we cant hide. we have to become bravehearted and battle hardened. we have to fight for a living. start from zero. over and over. go create your self then meet your creator. develop some mad pride, try to selfhelp and organize even if our each individual suffering varies plenty. suffering is not a competition. everybody hurts. western medics tell and educate us to comply to treatment and that there is no cure for some diagnoses like schizophrenia (comparably a thing like getting a lifetime sentence for something you have not done) and such, some seek false hope in religion, but there will be no Jesus come by like in the story in the bible asking the name of our demon. we will not answer him, that we are legion. he will not do the magic trick and transfer our spirits demons, whatever you want to call it, what plagues us into a herd of pigs and make them go off the cliff and drown. our battle continues. we get tortured everyday everywhere on this planet. being restrained, isolated and chemical warfare has been put on us by medics, who somewhen swore an oath to their to profession, to reduce the suffering or to abolish it. movies like one flew over cuckoos nest or a beautiful mind are well known nowadays, but our stigma was never lifted by such. In my opinion these medics are worse than Dr. Mengele, they put on their white suite and send us to living hell. in fact it is us, the psychopaths who heal them, the psycho-the-rapists, they spy on us, like perverted voyeurs, make us confess every detail of our martyrs and in our doubts of what is real and what not we pay them money. but somewhen, when one does not give in to their lies, we know real recognizes real, and same solves same. to me they are only ghosts when they come along in their shiny workwear. more often than a doctor it needs somebody who cares and treats you well, like a psychiatric nurse, male or female, somebody who lets us recognize that we are still human beings while being treated like animals by the big part of 'society' . Krishnamurti nailed it: It is not a sign of good health to be well adapted to a sick society, whose bloody roots stink and rot. even in the bible you can find some truth about us if you want to believe it: that what you have done to one of the lowest amongst you, you have done to me, Jesus said. we have never been liberated, this is why we stay close to our former comrades, the gay, the jews, roman and sinti, not to forget the political prisoners of that era. liberty comes with an enormous price, but it is not unpayable. solidarity love and power goes out to all the brothers and sisters in arms and their fight for liberation and human emancipation. i think on the kurds (betrayed several times by the US) antifas at the ukraine front (fighting side by side with nationalists, however, they must have their reasons) all the people movements in south america, mama africa and all of her children worldwide and some others i have forgotten for now. #blm but need to say it with ice t from bodycount, when it comes to the poor, no lives matter. #FreeMumiaAbuJamal i hope he is still in a good spirit and an acceptable health. remember che: they only come kill a man! Greetings at every fighting irish, the P.I.R.A. Both of my Middle Fingers go out to the C.I.A.O. (officially) , i'd be the first to welcome Kamala Harris in Office tho. We need to discuss WTC 7. I close with Benjamin Franklin's words: You can fool some people some time, but you can't fool all the people all the time! The racist white man lives in fear of a black populated planet for already long now. He fears to be judged for what he has done to people with another colour of skin throughout history, the steal, the enslaving etc. Let us end white supremacy as soon as possible. Shoot the greedy billionaires like Bezo's etc. to space, make them pay for oxygen by minute there, and we might get even in some way imho. put in Putin, in some Gulag. Something like that, the decision will be probably not up to me, but one thing i know of there is justice in Karma, even if it is not instant oftenly. #nojusticenopeace no rest for the wicked. love for the streets. love you!