i am the one responsible fer my actions and behavior; i am the only one who is. when i find myself in disarray, it is because i have put myself there. it takes the courage learned through livin and exercisin the spiritual principles of this thing we do to own up to my faults so...

each day i wake, i hope to do His will. i work and strive, to do the best i can, to transmit what He has given me. fer me, what i have learned, as i have walked this journey, the best way fer me to see the changes i have made is to continue through...

i can say, as i continue to enter this new dimension of reality, i too am fortunate, to have had this transformation happen in my life. i have seen so many go down fer the count, i know i am a blessed one; graced by God to have been able to have had the courage...

"i will never forget the loneliness and despair i found in that bitter morass of self-pity," these words from the big book speak volumes. i remember how that felt, how much i hated myself, how much i just wanted to die. how fear, in every stretch imaginable, had me held tight as one of its...

i understand today, AA isnt a cure-all. i reckon, when i 1st became a member of the program, i was hopin it would be like santa claus, but it wasnt. i found out i had to do the work to achieve the presents. im grateful fer the ability to have had the willingness to have...

today i get to walk past things that would have stopped me dead in my tracks years back. i have been given new soil fer my new roots. i can stand my ground and let the tornado whirl about me. these are things i used to be able to not do, i always had to...

i remember years back when it was suggested to me that i needed to build a relationship with a HP and have total faith in it. i could never even imagine the level of faith i have today, then. it is somethin that i have had to cultivate. it hasnt all come in 1 day,...

it can be hard fer me to honestly look at myself and make honest judgment calls that are true and real. i can make up all kinds of reasons why this, or that, should go in my favor, or not. when i am able to be totally honest about any given situation, i find that...

i remember when i came into the rooms and was able to start really listenin to what the people and speakers were sayin. i began to hear many of em speak of the way i had felt while i was out doin my dirt nstuff. it began to occur to me, i was really not...

this can be hard fer me to do sometimes, it does get easier as days pass. bein honest with others does confirm honesty within me. i am blessed today to be honest with others so i can be honest with myself. my HP confirms with me what dishonest actions do, He lets me see, live,...