Happy holidays if you're celebrating. If you're mourning, I mourn with you. My significant other lost his mom just a few short weeks ago to a long battle with throat cancer. I grieve with him, from a distance. Covid restrictions are tight here in Saskatchewan, the Rez is on lock down and the best I...
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https://www.youtube.com/w… Happy Birthday to me! 3:28 am and I am wide awake, weird considering I only got a few hours of sleep and I usually run on 8-10 a night. It's a Mac Miller/Ariana Grande kind of vibe this morning. Yesterday I may have entrenched an even deeper wound between one of my older sisters...
Sometimes, I think it's okay to feel happy. Not just like artificial high produced, but regular had a meaningful exchange with another human being and am happy for it. Then comes the anxiety. It will pass, of course, when the next message from ANYONE arrives, but like that high, it is only for a fleeting...
I've been up since 3:30 this morning. To keep sane and not just stare at the roof I picked up Gabor Mate's "In the Realm of Hungry Ghosts: Close Encounters with Addiction", it took me to 7am, when I was supposed to have an appointment with my addictions counsellor. Last we talked, I told him...
readin this mornins daily i cannot help but think back to the days of the self-imposed loneliness i suffered. buildin walls so that i could protect the fragile, not italian made, ego i felt so eager to protect from the outside world. how i rejected forgiveness, hope, love, freedom, and friendship, because i didnt know...
Living sober. We all want to solve the riddle right? Decipher the life of the unknown child in us. Search out understanding and find true answers. There must be some good somewhere? Even though we don't all agree on the journey or process, we can agree the needed end result is balance. We all need...
today i have answers to the problems i may experience when i am willin to accept what they may be. recovery has taught me that there isnt a problem i may face that i cannot apply the spiritual principles to. when all through life some of the things i could have had simple answers to,...
with steps 3, 6, 7, & 11, i am equipped with tools that i did not have before my recovery began. surely each of these concepts may have been within me, but i did not know or understand how to use them as i do now, so many years after my recovery began. and even...
livin with the feelin of bein at peace with life was somethin i couldnt experience before my recovery began unless i had drank or drugged so much that oblivion came my way. today, i get to experience life with peace of mind because recovery taught me how to find it and live with it. before...
To Watch Loneliness Vanish Almost without exception, alcoholics are tortured by loneliness. Even before our drinking got bad and people began to cut us off, nearly all of us suffered the feeling that we didn’t quite belong. Either we were shy, and dared not draw near others, or we were noisy good fellows constantly craving...