One of my biggest traumas is the result of people screwing with my head when I was emotionally vulnerable. I become very sick quickly if I suspect anyone is judging me or trying to manipulate me in any way. People compulsively gaslight each other and the behavior is deeply embedded into their subconscious and so...
after i started to see this thing we do start workin in my life, i couldnt believe the release of so many pent-up emotions and feelins. i knew that i no longer had to hide from everythin and everybody, i could just be joel, whether people would accept me or not. i was taught the...
It is time to blow a hole in the expression, "Spiritual not Religious". I am both spiritual and religious, so I am pretty sick of people trash talking religion like it is something bad and that no one who is religious, is spiritual. I hope this posts pisses some people off. Let's start with the...
as i lived through the early stages of my recovery i wondered if these steps would really work. i mean, i had watched others be successful at it and others fail at it. i wondered if God could really help me change my old behaviors and help me move onto a better way of livin....
i am grateful fer the relationship i have with my HP. i am thankful i can let Him do what He needs to without too much interference from me. this relationship i have with Him has done great things fer me. i no longer have to feel lonely, unloved, or not trusted. i can accept...
This past week, I let go of a number of people, anyone who was disrupting my peace. A couple of them were people I had been sponsoring. Sponsorship is an odd thing. I sponsor people because it helps me feel better about myself, when I am selfless. I am not helping other people as much...
acceptance of my alcoholism was but a 1st step in regainin control of my life. a lot of things happened to me as a result of my drinkin; i lost self-confidence, self-respect, and even the will to live on. acceptin these things as a loss was a difficult undertaken. i couldnt believe that i had...
there came a point in my life when my own self-sufficient self-will was no longer able to carry me through each day. i was worn out; it no longer helped me to survive. as i started livin the principles of the program in my life i could feel the change in my life, my outlook,...
with help from my HP i was able to admit my defeats in life; i was able to understand that things i feared the most were things i needed to deal with instead of runnin from. with this simple yet, tough understandin, i have been able to move forward. my HP has given me the...
when i used to hang with other sorted types, i noticed even though we had a common goal and would stick together, most of the time, when the goods ran out, we ran out on each other. there was never any real true unity. here in this thing we do, there seems to be, even...