to become willin to make the list of ALL persons i had harmed i needed to go back to the earlier steps and focus on those principles. with the help from my sponsor i looked at the honesty, hope, faith, courage, integrity, and humility, i had worked at practicin. pullin from each of these and...
Who Answers?
in my early recovery this list was helped along by my sponsors guidance. i had already written those whom i held a grudge or resentment. what was surprisin to me was the way my sponsor helped me understand how those i perceived had harmed me, had actually been hurt by me 1st. their reaction to...
i fought myself and my alcoholism before my recovery began to find some way to be able to continue drinkin but stop doin the stupid shit i was doin, and sayin the stupider shit i was sayin. i tried methods i thought id never try. with all the desperation of drownin men i sought escape...
through personal inventory i learned how fear had driven me to protect myself from perceived harms. it always seemed, if i was to feel another start tryin to get at me, i had to strike first. and to try to say there was no self-delusion, self-seekin, or self-pity involved, would be a straight lie today....
today i understand just how important it is to be willin to listen and ask for right guidance, weighin every situation with a degree of liberality. my personal inventorys have shown me, and taught me, just how relyin on self can lead me to troubles and difficulties which become too much for me to manage....
recovery will not work for me unless i give up control of the selfishness and self-centered, self-absorbed want to get what i want when i want it. and to say this wasnt an epic battle in my early recovery would be missin the fact that everythin i did before my recovery began turned to shit...
Slim...
recovery has taught me how to put into practice a workin course of conduct and action which will directly rectify the harm or injury my past, or present behavior or words, may have been imposed upon others, while at the same time startin to harmoniously relate me to the world around me and my fellows....
do i have a right to speak of my recovery and the spiritual principles which have brought me thus far? yes, i do. but that does not mean i continuously drive it home to someone who does not want to hear it. recovery has taught me to be an attraction to recovery, not a spiritual...
i reckon over the years ive shared my story verbally many times. ive said shit ive lived through in recovery and how i reacted to em usin what recovery teaches. no matter what ive ever said, the proof of the results has been shown through action and behavior. words said can have a lastin effect...