in the days of doin my dirt, i mistook emotional armor for strength, layerin myself in certainty and pride to shield against the ache of vulnerability. i built walls from past wounds and called them wisdom, convinced that isolation was safer than connection. but the silence inside that fortress grew deafenin. eventually, the structure cracked,...
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today i understand that the peace and happiness i once demanded durin the days of doin my dirt were born from ego and fear, not faith. the harder i tried to control life, the further i drifted from a true sense of humility and honest integrity. alcohol always blurred that growin emptiness within, disguisin my...
it has been my experience that spiritual maturity grows when i apply what i have learned through self-inventory to create inner change that shapes my thoughts, actions, and behavior. as these changes become part of who i am, gratitude turns into quiet loyalty to a better self. i have learned that when my heart is...
in the days of doin my dirt my life was governed by blame and denial, each misfortune demandin a convenient scapegoat. incapable of self-recognition, i mistook self-righteousness for moral clarity and self-pity for depth. the more i accused, the more i drank, and the further i receded into resentments paralysis. this thing we do dismantled...
to sustain my recovery, ive had to live in ways that once felt unnatural. i no longer review my day through worry or regret but through humility and honesty. each night i ask my HP to show me where ive erred and where ive grown. when i owe an amends, i make it; when ive...
today i dont need alcohol to escape my feelins. i still get to experience my humanness through selfishness, resentment, and fear, but they no longer control me for too long. prayer, meditation, and practicin the spiritual principle of Perseverance helps me respond instead of reacting. when i harm someone, i admit it and make amends...
for me today, when i responsibly live my recovery im required to follow the steady practice of curbin rashness, a spiritual discipline rooted in humility and restraint. when i act or speak out of agitation, the results are always painful. i once believed quick reactions showed strength, but ive learned they reveal fear and ego....
practicin self-restraint in Step Ten has become one of the most revealin mirrors of my inner condition. it shows me where self still rules and where surrender has begun to take root. i used to believe that restraint meant holdin back desire, but ive come to see it as the quiet strength to align my...
one of the most insidious manifestations of my alcoholism arises when i allow anothers wrongdoin, whether real or imagined, to disturb my spiritual equilibrium. though i possess no power over the actions of others, i often find myself reactin as though i do. a word, a glance, or a perceived slight can ignite a spark...
ive learned that it is my responsibility for my recovery to continually apply the spiritual axiom, that whenever i am disturbed, the problem lies within me, with honesty and humility. though it is temptin to blame others for my frustrations or discomfort, recovery has taught me that my freedom depends on lookin inward rather than...