i can remember drinkin and feelin like this, "on top of the world." i have no doubt that a few drinks today might even invoke those same feelins of omnipotence. fer me, i need to think a lil beyond that 1/2hr feelin. i need to remember what comes next, the lyin, the cheatin, the stealin,...
as with all relationships i have, i MUST continue to be willin to give of self. in my relationship with God, as i receive, even givin more than my fair share if and when possible. i have learned that as i give, i receive. this is 1 of the promises i have been given as...
this spiritual kindergarten, which i perceive is my initial journey through the 12 spiritual principles, is preparin me fer much better things. i have already lived thru change from it. i cant even imagine what is yet to come. i mean i keep thinkin, “its gonna get better than this?” from what ive witnessed in...
i had to learn to trust myself before i could trust others, and have them, trust me. it was a process that still happens even today. i cant be blind to my own wants or needs whether good or bad. i need to truly inventory every lil thing i think up as im still capable...
when i finally started to live and let live and give the problems that were beyond my control over to my HP i did notice a change in how i grasp lifes situations. this was truly a step towards acceptance and peace. realizin that i could really do nothin about certain situations in my life,...
i know fear will never ever leave me totally. i have to use works i have learned from this program to defeat it. i wish i could “will” it away, but i know it is simply crazy thinkin. when fear approaches i need to face it head on and ask God to help me through...
its almost impossible fer me not to have fear in my life, it IS an evil and corrodin thread in my life. i do not need to let it run my life though. i have been given a set of tools that truly work in rough goin. askin God to help guide me thru those...
i would have really never thought that the adage of, "ya gotta go thru hell before ya can get to heaven," would ever really play out in my life. just as the readin says "the paradox" has come true in my life (i just hope there aint any more hell to go thru). as hard...
im grateful fer this fellowship of freedom, it carries me through some of my toughest times. i used to rely heavily on alcohol to do this fer me. today i no longer need to take that avenue to find love, peace, and serenity. i truly enjoy the principle of freedom within this thing we do....
sometimes today i have to really dig to find Him within me, but He is ALWAYS there. i must let go of my want or desire and surrender, acceptin current circumstances fer what they are. it aint always as easy as it may sound, but eventually the crow of self-will begins to taste bitter and...