my alcoholism shows its ass every day. its up to me to let it shine through with either poor behavior or speak it through words that have the potential to harm others. the key to not havin this happen, ive found, is the daily reprieve found through the maintenance of my spiritual condition. when i...

so essential is it fer me to accept my present circumstances as they are today. just coz i got a lil time in this thing we do, it doesnt mean my humanness has been lifted. this also applies to the acceptance of self and of others. its been my strength, ive been able to use...

the understandin that i am powerless over alcohol is still somethin i practice today. i get to understand, from gainin the wisdom from the process of the steps, lookin at my history before comin into this thing we do, i cannot romance the idea of 1 drink. i understand today 1 drink is all it...

Although I've lost so much to drinking, I feel like there's some hope. I feel like some things can turn back the way they used to be. My main goal for 2024 is to become sober again and regain everyone's trust back....

after doin the 4th, 5th, 8th, and 9th steps i had no doubt i was alcoholic. if i had done each of those steps to the best of my ability, usin honesty, willingness, and humility as guides while exercisin em, how could i surmise anythin less? i kept the thought within that maybe someday i...

i could not see the damage i was doin to my family, others, or myself back in the days of doin my dirt. to think i was doin anythin other than the norm, was a thought i could not fathom. and when i did come to realize it, the excuse which kept me wrapped in...

I've been reflecting on my actions a lot and one lesson I've learned is that everything I've lost would've been lost if I hadn't started drinking again, in turn making my disorder and my thinking worse. This lesson needs to be THE lesson and I intend to make the right decisions from here on out,...

i cannot recall when i lost the ability to control the drinkin i did back in the days of doin my dirt, but i do understand today, i did. i do not know when i decided to make decisions based on self to use alcohol to solve the personal problems i had, but i understand...

the idea of protection and care from an entity i cannot physically see, feel, or hear, had always seemed to elude me throughout the days of doin my dirt. unless i needed a santa god, there was no belief in anythin other than self. what seemingly did take away my problems, was my need to...

i get to live a certain liberation and strength today. though i may still struggle with surrender, the surrender i learned in my early recovery from utter defeat, helps me with the surrender i must practice today. as i get to live my humanness im still a person who lives by self-will to an extent....