i could not quit drinkin, nor could i alone quit the obsessions i had about it. today i understand the power of such a statement. to admit total loss of power and self-control, to actually look at and understand the unmanageability that surrounded my ass in all directions, was somethin i could not do while...
this was most def where i was at, at one time, choiceless. the only thing i could do after as long a stretch as i could stand livin in my own skin, was take a drink for relief. i had lost the power to control my drinkin. sometimes i could go for very long stretches...
i remember the desperation and defeat i felt in the last days of doin my dirt. it appeared that there was no way out of the loneliness, self-pity, guilt, self-hate, and anger. the only thing that would take it away was another drink into someone i didnt want to be any longer. but it worked,...
when i start each day with spiritual readins, prayer, and meditation, surrenderin my will for His by askin Him to help me through my day, before i even leave my home, i get to go forth into my day with freedom and effectiveness. from my quiet time each mornin, God teaches me how to rest...
it is a blessin to not be able to forget the loneliness i once knew all too well. before the final days of my drinkin i thought bein a loner was a cool way to be. in time though, my alcoholism had driven all who wanted to be friends, and even family, away from me....
ive found that when in any given moment, when i turn it over to my HP, He intuitively provides me with the right emotion to psychologically think through it and then commit to a behavior that is in line with what i perceive He has spiritually provided. it is a practice of livin the spiritual...
i am powerless over alcohol and the disease of alcoholism. i do not have any control or manageability when i let my disease of alcoholism run the self-will within me. i can say these things about myself because i understand the importance of honesty within my personal program of recovery. its been my experience that...
hopeful for the new year ahead and excited for the journey comin. but none of this happens unless i keep the priorities ive set forth early in my recovery steadfast and solid. gettin sober, for me, is not enough to keep me sober. though i get to continue to live a spiritual experience, sobriety is...
i get to start another year sober and in recovery, livin what i perceive my HP and the spiritual principles guide me toward. how could i not feel like i am blessed, that i get to live the miracle of recovery? there is no doubt at this moment that God, my HP, has entered into...
as im blessed to live into a new year, i cannot forget how blessed i have been over 2021. through failure and success, i have fortuitously been able to live through each moment guided by the gratitude i have for the emotional sobriety this thing we do has shown me how to live. even as...