when i made my original list of all the people i had harmed i did not put myself on the list. i thought how could i put me down on this list if im tryna practice humility. i forgot that before practicin humility, i had to practice honesty. i forgot that i needed to practice...
i reckon if ya aint ever been “there”, ya aint ever been “there”. “there” is a place i dont want to ever visit again. this last week i made an amends to myself that took me a long 18yrs to do. rememberin the places i took me to and the lows that encompassed me are...
Chapter Two: The Ties That Bind There is no single, easy answer to how we make peace with our past, and it rarely happens all at once. Throughout our recovery different pieces of ourselves become available to us, and other parts are ready to be let go. Sometimes this is a peaceful process, and sometimes...
i learned through my personal inventory how fear had driven me to step on the toes of my fellows. and just as the big book says on page 62, self-delusion, self-seekin, and self-pity, were the fears within that had provoked me to act in ways that others had no idea or thought as to why...
anythin that has been any good for me has taken me time, work, and practice to obtain. my recovery, especially speakin of my emotional stability, took time to get some kind of control over. plagued by waves of guilt for the things i had done to my family, my acquaintances, and myself, i struggled early...
i never had much a thought about listenin to others. let alone God. i might listen for a minute, but usually found fault or error in what i heard and immediately shut down hearin anythin else. recovery has taught me the failure of a closed mind. it has taught me that if i want to...
August 4 When Is A Secret Not A Secret? "Addicts tend to live secret lives…. It is a great relief to get rid of all our secrets and to share the burden of our past." Basic Text, p.32 We've heard it said that "we're as sick as our secrets" What do we keep secret, and...
i reckon the best way for me to keep God out of my life, even when i keep with faith, is to not do my part in what ev i need to do to acquire what ev it is i am after. its like i cant hope, wish, and pray for employment if i dont...
bein that ive learned that the spiritual principle of step 8 is brotherly love, recovery has asked me to use the prior spiritual principles to be of maximum service to my HP and the people about me. this does require that i lean on the knowledge ive learned about myself through the process of personal...
Yes the Big Book 12 Steps do refer to a person who is unfortunately ugh..well, (constitutionally incapable of being honest with themselves). What does that even mean? A good description of it in my experience was when I was banging out meetings, going on commitments and setting up, cleaning up the hall. I was committed...