oh, how i remember the guilt, remorse, and self-loathin. to be quite honest, the fear of experiencin all of those feelins again helps ta keep me from usin and drinkin today. i didnt like feelin those feelins, though perfectly human, they sucked ass! i understand today if i continue to put what i perceive is...
i knew there were others who i harmed, i just didnt know the extent of the damage i had done until lookin at these "discovery steps" honestly with my sponsor. even today i can go into the morbid reflection of these memories if i let myself fall into that trap. i have to truly humble...
when i was actively drinkin i can remember thinkin this same thing, “man i aint hurtin nobody but me”. i even carried that idea into my early recovery, these were my, honest as i could be, thoughts at the time. even though i would argue with my wife and everythin seemed to be ok from...
in many ways i am still workin on repairin the damage i had done to others and myself. i cant say that i really wanted to approach these people and admit the wrongs i had done. doin steps 6 and 7 helped me in doin this. i had to call back upon those 2 steps...
again, here it all falls on me, what i need to do, how i need to do it, and why i need to do it. i learned it wasnt others who caused all my dismay. i had to develop an honest willingness to grow with an open-mind so i could really humble myself and dig...
My name is Jeff and I am in recovery for numerous things. It is my belief that all of my issues are trauma related. I spend most of my time in isolation, I connect with very few people privately and most of them only speak to me for a short time. I am hypersensitive and...
lookin at all the harm i had done to others, and to myself, seemed to be a dauntin task with a sober mind. ya just need to know how my shortcomins were tryin to rationalize not takin this look, and how my character defects were tryina give me justification fer doin the shit i did....
honesty, faith, courage, integrity, and humility come at a cost. this price can either be termed a liability or an asset. it is up to me how i perceive the consequence of those decisions. gittin rid of all the "ground glass" in my life was an exasperatin exercise in humility. lookin honestly at what i...
it is true that my 4th step list did not uncover some of the people i needed to make amends to. writin this 8th step list i was able to see the others and look deeper into myself to see the wrongs i had done and how i affect them and myself. i do not...
My name is Jeff. I am an alcoholic, codependent and addict in recovery with PTSD and Bipolar disorder. I am also an Omnist Reverend, one of very few. Omnism is the belief that there is truth in all religions, yet none of them are perfect. I did not know I was Omnist myself until I...