writin my 4th step inventory was a first foray into understandin the harm i had caused others. my 5th step, talked over with my sponsor, helped me to comprehend how i may have potentially used my will to influence em into favorable acts fer my personal disposal. it was hard to fathom i had done...

if there was a fear i had in my early recovery, and before, it was a fear of lookin within and takin on me. i loved to tell people i wasnt afraid of any man, what i didnt tell em was how scared i was of myself. if it wasnt fer the prior 3 steps,...

a constant in my recovery is workin toward practicin the spiritual principle of humility. when, and if, i can take my self-will out of the way of any situation or circumstance i may face, i allow an opportunity fer my HPs will to come to the forefront of my action, behavior, and thinkin. open-mindedness allows...

there have been many times in my life where the best just wasnt possible. in those times shit that was almost the best, or seemed to soothe the beast within, was all i could manage to produce. i learned in my recovery the shit i strived fer, which i only thought was the best, never...

i have had the privilege of bein on several committees, boards, panels, and other service groups in this thing we do. any position ive served in, whether fiduciary, strategic, or generative, has been a pleasure and learnin opportunity fer the diplomatic governance of each role. in each function, providin my service as a member at...

when i came into the rooms, it was my decision to call myself an alcoholic or not. nobody forced that decision upon me. after sittin in the rooms fer a while and listenin to those who came before me tell of the same emotions i had experienced throughout my alcohol use, it became clear, that...

to understand i had been held trapped by a disease i didnt understand while steeped in the mire of it, was a monstrously huge development fer me. breakin free from the grip of my alcoholism helped me refocus the opportunities i had been given; they didnt have to involve alcohol anymore. with the spiritual courage...

this mornins daily lists just another of the simplest, briefest, forms of direction and instruction fer me to follow if i want to remain sober. reiteratin, just like the ease of clean house, trust God, and help others, the simplicity of this thing we do. just coz they are simple, as ive learned, they are...

i reckon i can remember all the regret, shame, remorse, and guilt of the self-pity i felt back in the days of doin my dirt. the memory of those feelins and how they drove me deeper into fear, anger, worry, and foolish decisions, is still with me today. it is no wonder a healthy sense...

this is where God allows me to use my natural humanness. He doesnt stop me from makin decisions based on self, nor does He stop me from sufferin the consequences and repercussions of the behaviors, actions, or words i choose to live out my self-will. am i to remain passive, swimmin in the mire of...