imperative to my future welfare is the ability to forgive and to be forgiven. it is an act of humility and spiritual inspiration fer me to understand how necessary it is toward the continuation of my program of recovery as i move in the direction of such an independence. with a release of anxiety and...
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the big book says when i harbor resentment, i shut myself off from the sunlight of the spirit. havin written down my 4th step inventory, as my sponsor and i discussed it in my 5th step tell, he pointed out to me how i had held these resentments usin the character defects and shortcomins i...
recovery has given me the tools, allowed me to learn from my experience, and taught me the spiritual principles of recovery to help better my life as a whole. though some of the tools, experience, and how i choose to use the spiritual principles may be hard to express, when needed, if im honest, use...
this aint my 1st time tryin to get sober, it is my 4th. fortunately, fer me, if i continue to do what is necessary, there will not be a 5th attempt, if im to be so blessed. through my own experience, and the watch of others, not tryin to do any of the steps as...
i get to live a life ive never lived before. loneliness and isolation kept me in fear of the consequences of my behaviors, actions, and words. i could never tell of these emotions in fear of bein laughed at or talked down to, fer bein human. negative and unhealthy self-consciousness demanded i never share these...
i think fer me the sense of belongin did happen as i was able to relay to my sponsor, and later to others, how i felt within. it wasnt there on day one, though i may have felt some ease, acceptin me took time. as acceptance slowly came, the sense of belongin did in turn....
i wish that once i had conquered a fear i would never have to deal with that specific fear again. unfortunately, fer me, i often face fears that i thought i had once overcome. insecurity, of any kind, obligation, the unknown, emotional, physical, and spiritual pain, disappointment, despair, loneliness, ridicule, rejection, death, and failure, are...
fear, which ever form it takes, fear of failure, fear of success, fear of rejection, losin my identity, or fear of perpetual misery, may sound simple to others, but fer me they are paralyzin. one of my biggest fears is not havin control of what is goin on around me or within me. there is...
havin left my sponsor with all my shit, needin to take a deep ass breath, over the next few days, i feel the sense of relief, and then the sudden rush of worry lettin another into my world brought. i felt a sense of healthy release, but also the self-induced feelin of loss of control....
my sponsor taught me the inventory i took was to be about me. he asked, before my share with him, if i felt ready to describe the shit i had done to others and the emotions i felt, even still today, keepin the focus of such, pointed in my direction. he assured me the shit...