when i first came into the rooms i didnt know if this recovery program would work for me. i was full of fear and had suffered through self-indulged ego problems. i had tried everythin i knew to stop the chaos that my alcoholism provided me. to say i had demanded myself to stay sober, to...
i must admit, that many years i was way too smart fer my own damned good. and even in recovery, with several years behind me, i can still fall prey to the self-delusion that i am smarter than the program and smarter than my HP. and boy dont the spheres have their way of makin...
It was said today "we are the lucky ones to be in this room" Lucky is an interesting word. In the past, I defined it as opportunity meeting preparation. Maybe so maybe not. As stated before, I need to question everything I had believed in the past. Yet the word lucky struck me. You see,...
doesnt it always seem that when i go to thinkin i deserve somethin i aint gettin that i start gettin all irritated, frustrated, and eventually, pissed off? and isnt it true that the wants i want arent usually what my HP may need me to have? yeah mannn, selfishness, self-centeredness, is usually what i got...
ive heard it in the rooms and have lived to tell, since my recovery began, faith overcomes fear. and even as i have practiced faith when fear strikes me throughout my recovery, fear still has a way of creepin its way back into my life. as i think about this this mornin, havin read one...
ive heard it in the rooms and have lived to tell, since my recovery began, faith overcomes fear. and even as i have practiced faith when fear strikes me throughout my recovery, fear still has a way of creepin its way back into my life. as i think about this this mornin, havin read one...
when i surrender, i have to surrender to more than just alcohol or my alcoholism. recovery has shown me the various ways i needed surrender throughout my life, i just couldnt do it. my ego was too strong to admit that i didnt have all the answers. the self-imposed crisis of bein crushed by my...
yesterday as we were ridin around lookin for a place to live in more permanently, i thought of how faith without works is dead. it was fun ridin around our new location in the sun with the windows down. we got to see a lot of the area and start markin landmarks that stuck with...
I've mentioned a few times that there have been recent days where I am down. I suppose I had been feeling sorry for myself because of my personal relationships were a wreck due to my relapse. I had originally said "I'm leaving this up to God". Yet, in the back of my mind, I continually...
i cannot tell ya that at all times im inspired to do well or the best i can. currently ive made the decision to make a move geographically that is far away from any comfort zone ive ever known. the only thing that ive found here, 850 miles away, that i could call anythin that...