do ya wanna know what i think gets monotonous? wakin every day, i mean comin to, and bein full of fear. bein scared because i dont know how im gonna manage my day. knowin that at some point, ima drink yet again and not have any control over what i do or what i say....
recovery taught me a healthy sense of personal responsibility, somethin i didnt have before it began. sure mannn, i paid my bills and kept a job, i had to have some place to live and a way to pay for my alcohol and drugs back in the days of doin my dirt. but in time...
with the idea of a spiritual axiom i get to look into myself and finger out whats goin on. in the past i didnt want to, i felt i didnt need to. but as recovery has shown me, then taught me, it was in those times i would become reliant upon the oblivion alcohol provided...
i learned through steps 4 & 5 how resentment has the power to kill me. i learned how i can carry them with me and use them as weapons against others to make myself feel better. through the admittance, surrender, and acceptance, ive learned how to tolerate the goins on around me. i dont have...
today i aint gotta use alcohol to combat the emotions or feelins i feel. selfishness, dishonesty, resentment, or fear dont run my life like they once did. it doesnt mean that i dont feel them from time to time because i do, its just that recovery has offered me solutions that help me when i...
before i had even come to step 11 my sponsor had suggested that i read pages 85 & 86 and try to make the practice of mornin and evenin prayer & meditation a staple in my daily life. well, ya’ll know how those suggestions go and what they really mean. bein as smooth a talker...
when my sponsor asked me to write my inventory, i did. i wrote down the things that were pressin me the most when i came into the rooms. it ended up bein a few pages long. he didnt ask me to write down everybody elses inventory, he asked me to write mine. hell mannn, if...
i didnt get where im at today overnight; mannn, im tellin ya it took time to get here. minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years, and even a decade. ive come where i am today because through those times mentioned, ive carried as best as i could, the principle of perseverance. through thick, through thin, in...
another readin i read every day in my mornin readins asks me to perform each task faithfully. it tells me i cannot do this life alone. it tells me i must eventually get off the bench and get into the game. that im not just a spectator: im supposed to be one of the team....
the spiritual principle of step 10 is perseverance. it is in the practice of perseverance i get to maintain my life usin each of the spiritual principles ive learned to this point in my recovery. i get to be aware of the world around me and my place in it. i no longer have to...