this is a lesson ive gotten to learn many times throughout my recovery. i try to hold onto somethin to see if i can work my way through it. ya think i would have learned my lesson after my initial personal inventory and seein how all the shit i held onto for years caused me...
when i approached step 4, i found it difficult. even as i already had an idea of what and who i was, i didnt want to have to see it all written down on paper through my own efforts. it meant i had to take into consideration the realization that i was a fuckin loser....
while givin the tell of my 4th step findins to my sponsor he demonstrated to me the concept of respect for others. as he sat quietly and patiently, listenin to what i had found, his poised and polite manner set an example for me to follow. when i was done we went through each one...
i couldnt have told what i had found out in my personal inventory if i hadnt formed a trust with my sponsor. through the prior 4 steps, goin to meetins, learnin from my sponsor what his story was, i was able to give the tell of my personal experience. it was a willingness to step...
my sponsor helped me see what i had written in my personal inventory with clarity. he helped me understand the misconceptions i had and the areas where i had let my self-centered fear guide my thinkin and behavior while out doin my dirt and while writin my inventory out. it wasnt that i had written...
it is my understandin that honesty is the spiritual principle of step 1 and step 5 builds upon it. it is where i get to begin to try to be honest with myself about the way my life has turned out up to the point i entered the rooms. it is where i get to...
its been my experience that recovery requires much action on my behalf. and the 5th step is one with which i am truly asked to step away from the ego and false pride issues ive had throughout my days of doin my dirt, openly and honestly sharin with another the dirt i found out while...
there are times i find it difficult to believe by tellin what it was like, what happened, and what it is like today, can possibly help another. in usin the spiritual principles of honesty and courage, tellin another my deepest, darkest, secrets, i get the opportunity to share my dark past. i get to tell...
it was quite the proposition to me to admit that i needed to tell another the exact nature of my wrongs. sure, it may have been easy to honestly ask God to help me, but actually be honest in tellin another? that was gonna be hard to do. and it was. i could pray and...
Ya know I have such an appreciation for this place InTheRooms.com. (Thank You Gentleman, for truly this place saved my current incarnation. I am so grateful, and this has been my second home since I put myself in this box and was afraid to come out again.) Love You Both Very Much. One thing I...